Slyyy

haha. soooo.. i'm funny..
okay, Jake (da boy).. was kind of being a doucher earlier this week.
Monday - i left my phone at home while i was at work (complete hell).. and so i didn't get any of his phone calls or texts. . so i got home and returned his phone call. and he told me i could come over. so i did. and then 15 min after i get there he's all like 'oh i made plans with my buddies to hang out tonight, i'm going there now'.. okaay.. no big deal you're hanging with your buddies. but don't invite me overrr.. i have better things to do... like SLEEP.. which is what i did when i went home..
but i was just a little annoyed of that.
thennn.
tuesday i texted him and i was like hey what's up.. and he responded with 'nothing'.... and i was all like uhh okaaay that doesn't deserve a response.. and then i texted him again later and i asked what he was doing.. and he said 'hanging with my buddies'... and i was like that's fun...
literally that's all we said to each other on tuesday..
i was annoyed..
baha. then last night (wednesday)
he texted me and was like i'm going to a party with my buddies, hope you're not mad that we haven't hung out.
and i was like 'no it's fine, i'm going to a party with robbie.'
bhaha.. robbie's one of my best guy friends.. and it's soooo convenient that he is because i easily make other guys jealous by hanging out with him.. i don't use him!.. but it's definitely a plus..
.... oh, and i knew that we were going to the same party hahaha.. so i told him that and he calls me right away. and asks if i'm mad at him.. and i deny ..
robbie and i got to the party later than everyone else.. so everyone saw us walk up together. baha including jake.. and he was totes jealous.

then we all had a good night. and jake took me home haha.. but being sly like that made jake jealous.. and it was awesome :)..

sometimes a guy needs to know that you have other options .. haha i was so proud of myself. i loveeed it.

so that was long. but i thought it was funny :)

weekend's agenda:
Friday: Erika's Birrthday grill out and party at Anne's
Saturday/Sunday: Cleaaar Lake :) one last trip before summer's over

Peace, HOE

Hello?

:)
I can't complain about a single thing in my life right now.
I am happy.
my family is well
my friends are great
the boy is wonderful
work is fine
life is good.

I leave for school in less than a month.
I'm scared to start at a new school again, seeing as the first semester at my previous school was such an awful experience. But I guess I did learn a lot about myself in that time.
This transition should be much easier. I'm rooming with one of my close friends. Our best friend lives across the street from our dorm. My other best friend lives across campus. One of my best guy friends lives in the dorm next to mine. . . so i can't see it going as bad as it did at Dayton.
Unfortunately, Jake (the boy), doesn't go to Iowa. . . hmph. and he hasn't asked me to be his girlfriend yet.. though we have talked about it.. he 'wants to ask me in a creative way'.. and i just want him to ask me hahaha.
He said he would visit often though.. and i'll visit him.. he's not too far away from Des Moines. .

I'm going to miss some of the people from Dayton, but I know Iowa is the right place for me

uhhh. there is this annoying man at my work that needs my computer.
byeeee

M.I.A.

Sorry, It's been ages.

Summer is crazy..

It's turning out to be one that is testing friendships and relationships.

it's an odd one for me, that's certain.

Grant and I were talking.

then a biggg fight erupted.

.. well.. not really a fight.. more that i gave him an ultimatum (sp?) and he chose the lesser of the two.. which is okay, something I understand

haven't spoken to him for a month and a half.

oddly - i'm okay :). much like a ton of bricks has been lifted off of my shoulders

I work all day Monday-Friday.

and rarely have any energy to do anything with my friends.

so i don't.

talking to a new boy.

he's nice.

taking things slow..

verrrrrry slow.

much slower than i'm used to.

it's good.

i'm the happiest I've been in a lonnnng time.

been a lot of places so far.

-Clear Lake w/ the bestiess

-Chicago w/ the family

-Kansas City w/ katieee and michael

-annnd will be heading to Northern Michigan for the 4th of July w/ Anne

-will be going to Chicago again to pick up my sister (Kady from France) and her kiddssss :) i'm so so sooooo excited to see her and Tess.. and to finaaaally meet Noe :)

I'm truly blessed to have the people that I do in my life.

Home

Home. meh:sweet:meh home... not so much?
i've been sick.. super sick..
and my mother has been nagging me every second of every day of how i need to take better care of myself and i how she hates that every time i come home i'm sick..
well sorry mom.. i'm sick now.. and i can't prevent all sicknesses..
literally i've been home since last friday.... and now one conversation we have had hasn't been about me being sick..


soooo.
last night. i had to pick her up from my friends moms house.. the mothers get together and do carepackages.. and they were putting one together for us for finals.. and my mom wanted me to see everyone.
i agreed.
but when i arrived within the first minute my lip ring is brought up.. a VERY touchy subject between my mother and i.. and i'm immediately annoyed of her and her reaction to the ordeal..
but whatevs.. i'll let it go.
10 minutes later she brings it up again.. and she's drunkkk. drunker than a skunk. so i'm embarrassed naturally.. and
so the tension is building blah blah blah. and we get home and all hellllll breaks loose..

it basically ended with me being like.
'mom, stop fucking nagging me.. seriously think of a moment in the past 5 days when our conversations haven't been about me being sick'
and she responded with
'there haven't been any conversations other than you being sick.... but what are we supposed to talk about.. we don't have anything in common...'
which made me really sad..
and so i started bawwwwling.. and hypervenhilating (sp?)... and that thing.. and she just laughed.. and blah blah blah.. i screamed at her.. because she wishes i were this girl named Katie Frazier.. a girl i went to high school with.. who is the epitamy of what my mother wanted her children to be.. and she talks about her SO FUCKING MUCH.. and quite frankly the girl is FUCKING annoying.. and dumb. and boring.. but she wishes i were her.. deep down she does..


END SCENE..
dramatic post is ended..
and now my brother is forcing me to play phase ten with my drunk mother..
she says one thing and i'm up and outtta hurr...

getting my hair done tomorrow :) supaaa excited.. i haven't had it done since thanksgivin'... much needed.. lotzz of split endzz..

bye lizz.. :) haha..
you're my only follower.. so i might as well direct these posts directly to you..

hope you are well.. :)

i'm an IDIOT

yeah.. having second thoughts.

probably going to transfer.
bahaha.

i can't make up my mind

Bigggg News :)

I'm staying at dayton :)

at first I disliked it here, so i told my father and his response was...
'yeah, that would probably be best for us financially'

and then i started to like it...
but was too afraid to tell my dad because i hate being a financial burden to my family..
and then i had a breakdown.
my friend mary was here this weekend. and it was SO great. and she really made me realize how much i do really love it here..
and so i called my dad

and no surprise he was as great as ever.. so accepting and so willing to let me cry and he said we'd make it work :)
and I cried for maybe 10-15 min just out of sheer happiness and just how much i love my parents and how great they really are..

in other news. i'm excited for summer. as everyone is of course, but i think i'm especially excited :)

okay. LATER homos

Back at Gayton.

The weekend... was simply amazing :) I got to see everyone I wanted to see.. except for Matt.. :/ but that's okay. It was so nice to be with Erika and Jessie. and to see Emily, Katie, Sarah, and Kim. First - We went to a bar called SPOCO for FAC (Friday After Class) and we drank a couple of beers. nothing too extravagent. then we went back to Erika's dorm and hung out. took some shots. met some of her friends. then we went to a bar called Summit. and we hit the dance floor. and boy did we hit it hard! :) haha. While Erika and Jessie were being freeeaaaks. Chan and I did some old school ballroom dancing. it was seriously SO much fun. Chan and I have an extreme love/hate relationship. he loves me. i tend to hate him. but i'd consider him my best guy friend. he doesn't mean to push my buttons. but when he does he ends up loving it an milking it for all it's worth. he's a great guy and i had the BEST time with him! I didn't even get annoyed of him!

Here's a picture of him and I at SPOCO

Hah.. I don't look so great. but it's a good one of him. Love the kid to death and can't wait to be going to school with him next fall! :)

Saturday I returned home and hung out with my family! :) went to dinner at Jesse's Embers because my mom was working. So my dad, my brother, and I had a nice sit-down dinner with my mom as our waitress [tipped big of courseee ;)] and then I went and hung out with Jim.. and like 10 guys from high schoool. i walked into the house and the first thing that came to my mind was SAUSAGE FEST + ME = AWKWARD!. haha but it wasn't at all! :) I had a great time and am so glad I stayed.

Then sunday I came back to gayton... got lost in indianapolis. but made it eventually! :)

Now for some HUMOR..

so it's been a reoccuring thing now that people have been putting up old pictures. from the early years of high school and even from middle school and 8th grade.

oh boy.

it's bad.

i was FUGLY..

see for yourself....

Freshman year.. OUCH. haha the girls on the far left and the far right are Jessie and Erika. hahaha the girls i visited at iowa this weekend. I'd like to say we've ALL come a LONG way! :) haha

Ohhhh . and finally my 8th grade trip to Washington D.C. hahaha to think.. this picture and the last picture were only taken a few month apart.. wooo thank GOD i made some progress between the two pictures.. even though the first one isn't any good either. it is a hell of a lot better than this one. :) there are loads more. perhaps another day i'll post them :) haha Tomorrow: Psych Exam - 9AM, History Exam - 10AM, English Paper due - 12PM.. with a possbility of having a Anthropology paper due at 8AM. :/ FML Laterrr!

Home Sweet Home

Home :)

I missed my Moochez :)

i'm home :) thank goddd! i stopped in iowa city and saw bets. i wasn't there long but it was great getting to see her.

then drove the rest of the way home. probablythe most difficult part.

other than that.. the drive was really easy and went by quickly.

I'm headed back to iowa city today to go out with my bestieees.. i get to see erika, chan, matt, and katie. :) i'm soooo excited!

Toot-a-looooo

My Iowa picture from Saturday Night :)

Woot WOOOOOOT
this time tomorrow I'll be in Iowaaaaaaa! :)
I'm pumped.
Really FUCKING pumped

although, I'm fucking SCARED about making the drive by myself.
:-/
okay.
i need to pack
and aundy's making me 'clean'
she's vaccuuming tomorrow.
betch.
BYE

Homeward Bound!

Headed Homeeeeee :)

So if a few short days... I'll be making the 10 hour drive home... by myself :/ i'm superr nervous for the drive by myself, but i think i can handle it!..

I'm leaving Wednesday after my classes.. and I have to possible plans...

Plan A.

Drive to Iowa City. Haaaang with my good friend Betsy Flood.. because she'll be leaving on Thursday for some track meet out of state. From there I'll spend the night in Erika's dorm. and then Thursday I'll dillydally around Iowa city while Erika is at classes. Stop by and see ChanMan, and Matt.. because they won't be able to go out with me on Thursday because of tests on friday.. and see some other people who will be there as well .. then Thursday night go to the bars with Erika and her friends.. then Friday wake up and look at apartments with Jessie and her mom. then drive home and spend the rest of the weekend with my family.

The problem: my bestest best friend in the whole world, Katie.. is going to Iowa city on Friday night for the weekend... along with my friend Emily, my best guy friend Jim, a good friend Michael and a tonnnn of other people.. so i'm in a dilema. I want to be in Iowa city friday night so i can see all of those people. AND party with Chan and Matt. So. ...

Plan B.

Drive to Iowa City on wednesday. Hang out with Betsy, so I can atleast see her. Then drive the rest of the way home that night. (two hour drive)... Then hang out with my family all of Thursday. see the grandparents etc. then.. either drive back Thursday night and party with erika, or drive back Friday morning to look at apartmetns with jessie and then stay the night friday and see everyone i want to see... then drive back home on saturday to hang out with my family some more. and then make the long ass drive back to dayton on sunday..

i'm thinking plan B is going to be the one i choose. even though it's a lot of extra driving. i still want to see all of my friends! yaaa know??

weekend: SUCCESSSSS. I had sooooo much fun.. I wasn't planning on going out last night.. I was so tired and just wasn't feeling like doing anything. but Andrea's friends from home were here, and Kelsey decided she was going to go out. so i decided to last minute. and i'm sooo thankful that i did. :) I had a BLAST.

Everything else is going well. I can't wait to be home..

:)

LaterHOMIE

Yholaaa

Whaddddup! :)
tis been awhile. sowwy. not a lot has been going on. actually nothing really. I didn't get into a sorority.. big kick right in the ego. but i threw myself some self-pity parties and quickly got over it! :) with the help of friends and family of course!
Classes are going well. and by well, i assume i'll get all B's. whatevss my parents can suck a fatty (vulgarity is my thingggg)
I kindd of have a boy.. meh - i don't want to speak too soon. He's nice. and haha has made himself a name around campus.. he's weird. but i tend to like weird. weird guys are more interesting and fun to be around.
So i'm transferring.
most likely to Univ. of Iowa. . . looks like i'll be getting an apartment with my good friend Jessie - who will be transferring from Iowa state.
so the whole sorority thing was probably a blessing in disguise. now I can freely rush at Iowa :) let's just hope i don't get another kick to the ego.. :/
I'm going home soooon :) end of the month. driving homeee woot wooot! i miss my parents terribly.
then one month after that. SPRING BREAK.
two weeks after that. HOME FOR SUMMER.
ahhh it's going so quickly!
Well I have a philosophy test in 9 hours. woot wooot Monaaaa Lisaaa Mullins. you suck at teaching!!
Nighttt ;)

FRIDAY!

yo,
it's friday.
Rush starts today.
i'm super nervous.
you see.. in high scool, i just thought that I'd get into any sorority i wanted.. because i was well-liked there. yeah. here is different - not that i'm not well liked - i'm just a lot more shy than i thought. im not as outgoing as i was in high school. i think because i went into high school knowing a lot of people. here - i didn't know anyone. it just feels like people don't have a desire to get to know me here.
mehh.
it's something about this place that continuously makes me feel less and less unique. like i'm losing myself. see the people that have gotten to know me well here know the outgoing sarcastic person that i am. i just wish everyone took the time to get to know me.
so sorority.. hmph somehow i have to figure out a way to show myself without not being myself.
boooo. i'll let you know how it goes.
byeeee