i'm an IDIOT

yeah.. having second thoughts.

probably going to transfer.
bahaha.

i can't make up my mind

Bigggg News :)

I'm staying at dayton :)

at first I disliked it here, so i told my father and his response was...
'yeah, that would probably be best for us financially'

and then i started to like it...
but was too afraid to tell my dad because i hate being a financial burden to my family..
and then i had a breakdown.
my friend mary was here this weekend. and it was SO great. and she really made me realize how much i do really love it here..
and so i called my dad

and no surprise he was as great as ever.. so accepting and so willing to let me cry and he said we'd make it work :)
and I cried for maybe 10-15 min just out of sheer happiness and just how much i love my parents and how great they really are..

in other news. i'm excited for summer. as everyone is of course, but i think i'm especially excited :)

okay. LATER homos

Back at Gayton.

The weekend... was simply amazing :) I got to see everyone I wanted to see.. except for Matt.. :/ but that's okay. It was so nice to be with Erika and Jessie. and to see Emily, Katie, Sarah, and Kim. First - We went to a bar called SPOCO for FAC (Friday After Class) and we drank a couple of beers. nothing too extravagent. then we went back to Erika's dorm and hung out. took some shots. met some of her friends. then we went to a bar called Summit. and we hit the dance floor. and boy did we hit it hard! :) haha. While Erika and Jessie were being freeeaaaks. Chan and I did some old school ballroom dancing. it was seriously SO much fun. Chan and I have an extreme love/hate relationship. he loves me. i tend to hate him. but i'd consider him my best guy friend. he doesn't mean to push my buttons. but when he does he ends up loving it an milking it for all it's worth. he's a great guy and i had the BEST time with him! I didn't even get annoyed of him!

Here's a picture of him and I at SPOCO

Hah.. I don't look so great. but it's a good one of him. Love the kid to death and can't wait to be going to school with him next fall! :)

Saturday I returned home and hung out with my family! :) went to dinner at Jesse's Embers because my mom was working. So my dad, my brother, and I had a nice sit-down dinner with my mom as our waitress [tipped big of courseee ;)] and then I went and hung out with Jim.. and like 10 guys from high schoool. i walked into the house and the first thing that came to my mind was SAUSAGE FEST + ME = AWKWARD!. haha but it wasn't at all! :) I had a great time and am so glad I stayed.

Then sunday I came back to gayton... got lost in indianapolis. but made it eventually! :)

Now for some HUMOR..

so it's been a reoccuring thing now that people have been putting up old pictures. from the early years of high school and even from middle school and 8th grade.

oh boy.

it's bad.

i was FUGLY..

see for yourself....

Freshman year.. OUCH. haha the girls on the far left and the far right are Jessie and Erika. hahaha the girls i visited at iowa this weekend. I'd like to say we've ALL come a LONG way! :) haha

Ohhhh . and finally my 8th grade trip to Washington D.C. hahaha to think.. this picture and the last picture were only taken a few month apart.. wooo thank GOD i made some progress between the two pictures.. even though the first one isn't any good either. it is a hell of a lot better than this one. :) there are loads more. perhaps another day i'll post them :) haha Tomorrow: Psych Exam - 9AM, History Exam - 10AM, English Paper due - 12PM.. with a possbility of having a Anthropology paper due at 8AM. :/ FML Laterrr!