Has this happened to you?

Have you ever left somewhere. gotten in your car. and the next thing you know - you're home??.. you've gone into some sort of trance. and you try to think back and remember how you got there?.. but you can't think of anything - you can't recall any of the things you saw. or what you heard on the radio.
yeah. that happens to me a lot. i think it's when i have a lot on my mind. and i do my best thinking when i'm driving. i believe i can recall what i thought about during my drive. and i could probably tell you the route i took - but only because i take the same routes everytime. but i can honestly say i don't remember ever being on the interstate - when i know i was.
it's actually quite disturbing. what if something were to happen.. would i have a reaction?.. a car cuts me off.. would i snap out of my trance in time?.
blah.
it's that time of year when my thoughts are running full speed ahead when i'm miles behind trying to figure it all out piece by piece.
life moves too fast.

i went to a movie with my pops tonight.
Benjamin Button - i enjoyed it.. very thought-provoking .. which i think are the best.

i'm on a photography fix. i'm convinced that's what i want to do with my life.
i consider myself a stalker when it comes to reading photographers blogs.
currently i've got 7 going. and get very disappointed when they don't blog everyday. and when they don't put up new photos.
i enjoy reading about their lives. and how they got to where they are.
i told my mom tonight that i wanted to be a photographer. meh - she did the supportive-mom thing first.
i told her what type. *lifestyle* - families, babies, kids, teens, weddings
and her suggestion was *magazine* 'photograph houses and food. and get them published in magazines'
gosh - sounds so exciting. and would actually contradict the whole meaning behing why I want to be a photographer.
it's weird. i love pictures. i could flip through a strangers pictures all day admiring the details.
mostly because there isn't a single picture of my family (or anyone elses for that matter) in my entire house. not one. no framed family photographs. i was never professionaly photographed. cameras were/are rare in my house.
and the few pictures i do have of my family were almost lost forever.
(pops cleaned out the garage while ma was on vaca.... tossed a lot of things out. it wasn't until a year later that we discovered pops didn't throw ALL of our family photos away. cut him some slack though they were tossed in large storage bins. he had no idea)
i guess i feel like i'm missing out on something
when i grow old with my husband and when we have children. my house will be filled with pictures. seriously -- EVERYWHERE. i don't want to miss a moment. and i want my chidren to be able to look back and see what they were like when they were little.

meh.
ironic - you'd think i'd post pictures. yeah - i have a point and shoot camera. but no charger for my battery.. which renders the camera useless... who knew that battery chargers for digital cameras are rare... i did not.
and i'd post pictures i've taken from my phone.
but im in iowa.
phone cord is in ohio.

sorry - my words will have to do for now.

i really like blogging. and i like doing it right before bed. when i'm winding down. when i'm in bed and warm and i'm too lazy to get up and brush my teeth. :)

night+

YoYoYo..

Hiii..

So i hate christmas. AMEN that it's over.. and without fail it was a bad one. :/ but for different reasons this year.

Hmph.. everyone calls me the grinch .. but they are wrong. i don't steal presents and quite frankly i hate that that's what people immediately think when we speak of christmas. christmas to me shouldn't be about the presents. because originally it's supposed to be about the celebration of the birth of jesus. now i've failed miserably on the note of religion this semester.. so it's not like i spent my christmas preaching about what it should be. i didn't. i just sat there being SCROOGE! :) come on people. get it right. haha

anywho. i got the flu on Christmas eve.. which ironically of the entire christmas season would be my favorite part.. we have a christmas party with my moms side of the family - and this year i couldn't make it because i had a date with the toilet for most of the day. i guess that's what i get for disliking this time of year.

and then Amy (my sister) spent her christmas eve/christmas day.. and the following days in the hospital :/ we went and visited her and had to put these body suit things on and gloves etc. and it was really sad because we couldn't touch her and we gave her her presents but she couldn't touch them. as much as she drives me insane i felt really awful for her.

and the DEVIL sister came into town with her DEVIL children (kerri).. and as always she was a massive bitch to me.. we talked about my transferring to iowa.. and i asked her about rushing for sororities there.. and immediately she was like 'i don't want to offend you or anything but, i don't think you can get into a sorority --- pause --- i mean it's difficult for sophomores to get into sororities' FUCKKK HER.. she's almost 40.. sucks to be her haha.

my mom is driving me insane.

i've realized that.. i miss my family - and if i am to transfer .. i dont want to transfer to des moines. i don't think i could handle being around SO often.. but i'm pretty sure i'm going to be transferring.. and now i'm rethinking where i'll go.. my options. Drake, Univ. of Iowa, and Iowa State..

i'm ready to get out of my house.. not necessarily excited about going back to dayton. but whatevs.. it is what it is.

i wuvvv my friends though :) .. we've had a great break together filled with secret santa's - gift exchange - ugly sweater parties - hanging out on erika's bed - eating - draaanking - falling on ice.. maaany times - i'll miss them a lot :/

annd i think i'm going to Chicago to go shopping with Vanessa a few days before school starts.. that way i can drive half way one day and the rest of the way another day..

from left. Katie - Michael - Emily - Me - Matty

the GROUP.. love them

more pictures to come from the ugly sweater party with the girls and the christmas party at erikas!

bye :)

Hello!

hello. =]
i'm emily. but the name of my blog is ann, because i've always wished that my name were ann. but it isn't, unfortunately ann is my middle name.
i don't really know what to say.
see this is my 2nd blog. the 1st one was... uh was more for my peace of mind and for me to vent. and basically for no one to see.
haha.
but i made this one. because lizz wants to keep in touch once she leaves. and she feels this is the best way.
i think aundywear needs one. . . i wonder what she would write about.

here's my list of what i think she would write about.
-her knee
-OSU
-alcohol
-mom
-minster
-shopping
....and i can't come up with anything else.

today. i didn't do much - but lizz and i did go to the emporium and had a nice little dinner bahha. - a nice little dinner consisted of a meetball sandwich pop and candy - you can't really get any better than that on this campus.

i'm going home in a week =] i caaaannot wait to see my friends..
i'm not a 'big' christmas person. so i'm not really looking forward to all of that stuff.. but other than that i'm going to be sooo happy to be home for longer than 4 days. annnd i'm flying and not riding with someone for 9+ hours in horrible weather! .. ahh

i should probably do my homework and study for my calc. test now.
peacehoEs