Has this happened to you?

Have you ever left somewhere. gotten in your car. and the next thing you know - you're home??.. you've gone into some sort of trance. and you try to think back and remember how you got there?.. but you can't think of anything - you can't recall any of the things you saw. or what you heard on the radio.
yeah. that happens to me a lot. i think it's when i have a lot on my mind. and i do my best thinking when i'm driving. i believe i can recall what i thought about during my drive. and i could probably tell you the route i took - but only because i take the same routes everytime. but i can honestly say i don't remember ever being on the interstate - when i know i was.
it's actually quite disturbing. what if something were to happen.. would i have a reaction?.. a car cuts me off.. would i snap out of my trance in time?.
blah.
it's that time of year when my thoughts are running full speed ahead when i'm miles behind trying to figure it all out piece by piece.
life moves too fast.

i went to a movie with my pops tonight.
Benjamin Button - i enjoyed it.. very thought-provoking .. which i think are the best.

i'm on a photography fix. i'm convinced that's what i want to do with my life.
i consider myself a stalker when it comes to reading photographers blogs.
currently i've got 7 going. and get very disappointed when they don't blog everyday. and when they don't put up new photos.
i enjoy reading about their lives. and how they got to where they are.
i told my mom tonight that i wanted to be a photographer. meh - she did the supportive-mom thing first.
i told her what type. *lifestyle* - families, babies, kids, teens, weddings
and her suggestion was *magazine* 'photograph houses and food. and get them published in magazines'
gosh - sounds so exciting. and would actually contradict the whole meaning behing why I want to be a photographer.
it's weird. i love pictures. i could flip through a strangers pictures all day admiring the details.
mostly because there isn't a single picture of my family (or anyone elses for that matter) in my entire house. not one. no framed family photographs. i was never professionaly photographed. cameras were/are rare in my house.
and the few pictures i do have of my family were almost lost forever.
(pops cleaned out the garage while ma was on vaca.... tossed a lot of things out. it wasn't until a year later that we discovered pops didn't throw ALL of our family photos away. cut him some slack though they were tossed in large storage bins. he had no idea)
i guess i feel like i'm missing out on something
when i grow old with my husband and when we have children. my house will be filled with pictures. seriously -- EVERYWHERE. i don't want to miss a moment. and i want my chidren to be able to look back and see what they were like when they were little.

meh.
ironic - you'd think i'd post pictures. yeah - i have a point and shoot camera. but no charger for my battery.. which renders the camera useless... who knew that battery chargers for digital cameras are rare... i did not.
and i'd post pictures i've taken from my phone.
but im in iowa.
phone cord is in ohio.

sorry - my words will have to do for now.

i really like blogging. and i like doing it right before bed. when i'm winding down. when i'm in bed and warm and i'm too lazy to get up and brush my teeth. :)

night+